Man. Poor kid needed some help. These are copies from CNET comments.
Suicide note:
"To Whom It May Concern, I am going to leave this for whoever stumbles across my bookmarks later on. I hate myself and I hate living. I think that if someone who knows me reads this they will know who I am. So I will leave this unsigned. I am an a@#hole. I have let everyone down and I feel as though I will never change or never improve. I am in love with a girl and I know that I am not good enough for her. I have come to believe that my life has all been meaningless. I keep trying and I keep failing. I have thought about and attempted suicide many times in the past. I used to think of my failure as some mystical way of telling me that I was really meant for something meaningful. The only thing I dread, besides the pain, is the way my family will suffer. I do not want my mother or father to think that it was anything they did that lead me to kill myself. I never really had any plans of leaving a note. I thought that I would not be able to describe why I want to do this and I am right. There is no way to tell you or anyone else why I dread every new day. My father had such high expectations for me and tried to give me every opportunity to improve upon myself. I let him down. I think that I am a major disappointment to him. I have a job but I?m always broke and I am in college but barely, I show up to class but that?s about it. I want my life to end. I am tired of f@#$ing up everything. I am tired of people always telling me that they do not like me. I am tired of trying to be decent. I hope that someone finds this post and I hope that my parents know that I f@#$ed up not them. It is my fault I screwed up my own life. The hate that rages within me, rages not for those I love so dearly or those who have crossed my path. This hate rages full force towards me and only me. I have long forgiven those who've hurt me, but I have not and cannot come to terms to forgive myself for the things I have done to myself, and the things I've done to hurt those in my life. You have all touched my life in one way or another, especially those whom I call family. I cannot tell you how sorry I am for ending my life the way I did. I hope that you can all find it in your heart to see it as way for me not suffering anymore and that I am finally at rest with myself, for being at rest with the guilt that constantly ate at me for so long. Please forgive me all for taking my own life so early. I tried so hard to fight against this strong battle. I have reached out for help so many times, and yet I believe, I was turned away because of the things I did, that it is a punishment I am willing to take, for I know that being who I am has only brought myself and others pain. I love you all and will forever live within the memories we created. Forgive me. Love always and forever, As for my signature I will leave you with a quote so that if anyone reads this they will know it's me, "Can?t feel pain if your dead? Just Saying""
Timeline:
* Nov 19, 2008 4:56 AM: User CandyJunkie of BodyBuilding forums create a topic in the misc subforum announcing his intended suicide.
Thread: Ask a guy who is gonna OD (again) tonight anything,:
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* Nov 19, 2008 5:17-5:18 AM: CandyJunkie lists the drugs he has taken and will overdose on: 16mg xanax, 7 roxies, 3 ultram and lexapro as his remaining drug. He leaves a copypasta suicide note.
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* Nov 19, 2008 5:32-5:51 AM: User izaktj reports CandyJunkie is trying to sleep. Miscers play around with the thought of calling the cops, but ultimately shrug off the issue and thread. CandyJunkie?s webcam continues to roll as he lays motionless during the 6 hours the thread is ignored.
* Nov 19, 2008 12:04 PM: User baby_matty bumps thread, stating that CandyJunkie is ?still laying there.? Posters begin to suspect that CandyJunkie is no longer breathing because of the lack of movement on his webcam, pertaining to the expanding of the ribcage during respiration.
* Nov 19, 2008 1:03 PM: After alerting forum moderators, user AlexNipples receives controversial response from moderator ?Roxie? regarding taking action to save CandyJunkie?s life.
* Nov 19, 2008 1:05 PM: User IVEverLow posts thread linking to CandyJunkie?s phone number. A few minutes later, user Eshamed51 calls, is forwarded to voicemail and leaves infamous message ?Do it ******.? Posters begin to discuss CandyJunkie?s lack of movement as a sign of death or drug induced coma.
* Nov 19, 2008 1:53 PM: User Bulker reports CandyJunkie?s personal information, including name and number: Abraham Briggs; 954.918.1247. Suggests that they call cops. Posters discuss the legitimacy of the broadcast, considering the possibility that the video is a still image or on a loop.
* Nov 19, 2008 2:09 PM: Users take action. Bulker sends failed email to Miami police department, posts the Miami Police department contact information and urges other posters to contact.
* Nov 19, 2008 2:32 PM: Bulker calls Miami Police department 3 times with success, but fails to convey the urgency in his message.
* Nov 19, 2008 2:41 PM: User mophatthedamaja confirms CandyJunkie?s suicide note is indeed copypasta, while Normg002 posts link to CandyJunkie?s myspace page.
* Nov 19, 2008 2:55 PM: User jjlee138 announces successful communication with police; reports they are en route to CandyJunkie?s location.
* Nov 19, 2008 3:30 PM: Live on webcam, Broward County police break down CandyJunkie?s door and secures the area for an EMT to enter. A cop covers the webcam. The broadcast ends.
Forced entry to scene of an hero
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* Nov 19, 2008 10:58 PM: Unconfirmed reports regarding Abraham?s status. "
Re: Possible "An Hero"
